How????

Lately the same question keeps going through my head. HOW DID MY MOM DO IT? I know my dad was there too, and I love him and appreciate him, but still I think... HOW DID SHE DO IT? I love my baby so much. Staying home with her is a blessing. I get to see her everyday, all day long which I cherish. The thing is, I had a completely different picture in my head of what I would be like as a stay at home mom. It's not a secret that I like organization, cleanliness and routines. Well, funny thing, Delaney doesn't care so much. Neither do Daylen or Kaylie for that matter. I feel like all of my "skills" as an organized person have flown out the window. It is so frustrating. I find myself thinking back to when we were little. My mom figured out how to vacuum and dust. She figured out how to clean the bathrooms on a regular basis. She baked all the time and had dinner every night for the family. Granted, sometimes we would have "daddy gone dinners" which meant dad was on a trip and we would eat fish sticks, pancakes, etc. (yummy, by the way). But the point is, she did it. All the time, every day. Me, not so much. I remember eating dinner, my mom would do the dishes, we would all get ready for bed and be on the couch by 7:00 to watch shows like Full House or Home Improvement together. There aren't any good family shows anymore. Doesn't matter though. I can't seem to make dinner, do the dishes, give Delaney a bath and put her in pajamas before 8:30. I am trying. If it's this hard now, how will I ever manage with two? I have come to the conclusion that I either have to try harder or give up on the image that I had of myself before. I so want to be that perfect wife, mother, step-mom, homemaker, etc. but I am not. I read the Nie Nie dialogues and I see that she can do it... why can't I?

Enough rambling, I just want to know how my mom did it?

HMMMM.....

**Thankful Thought**
Thanks mom... I love you