We had such a great, busy weekend full of family and friends. I would show you pictures, but you see my stupid computer doesn't work and neither does my stupid camera. SO I have pictures on 3 different cameras and pictures on 3 different computers. Anyway, like I said, good times this weekend. We spent Saturday at my friend, Ami's, house. See, she has triplets and they are turning one! Ami was nice enough to let me make the babies cakes! I was super excited. At the birthday party, I was looking around and immediately had millions of thoughts running through my head. My friend Sarah is pregnant. She is beautiful and happy and loving being pregnant. I am so excited for them as well, but I couldn't help but think back to my pregnancies. I regret so much about that time. I regret that I didn't enjoy it more. Honestly, both pregnancies made me feel like my butt was going to fall out at any moment (I carried them SUPER low). I counted the days until the babies came and I am sad about that now. I regret that I don't have any pictures really of when I was pregnant. I have more with Delaney than with Brody and I am so bummed. I loved feeling the babies move and knowing that I was growing somebody, but I never stopped to enjoy it. I regret that I didn't breastfeed them longer. I really do. I regret not savoring the moments of having newborns. I regret not teaching them how to sleep- so much! I regret not having pictures with the kids when they were babies. I regret not being the mom I always thought I would be. I look at Ami and she lives in every moment of her babies and I don't.....
I hate having these regrets and to be honest, they don't even scratch the surface. I don't even know why I am writing this except to maybe face these regrets and be held accountable from now on. I don't want to have regrets anymore.
Now that I have bummed everyone out, I will have fun pictures tomorrow of the awesome party and the aire show:)
And Sarah....enjoy what's left of your pregnancy and enjoy your baby:)